When things are getting out of control, you see people packing their bags, sending their withdrawal form to school, and you are still clueless with yourself and suddenly one important thing popped in your mind.
Ikhlas, or in English they call sincerity? But ikhlas means much more deeper than sincerity.
Why i am so holding on to my decision of staying here. The truth is because my studies will finish in less than 4 months. And insyallah i left with few more juz to khatam. But, the question here is, atas dasar apa aku betah disini, ikhlas sebagai tholibul 'ilm or just for the sake of certification. Kalau balik sekarang, memang there is no hope to get the certificate, but.. you'll bring back the knowledge and 'ilm that you gained since the beginning of the course. Ah nampak sangat kan belajar sebab certificate, sebab tu takut kalau kene balik sekarang.
Jujur, nak capai marhalah ikhlas.. tak mudah.. Kadang dah paksa diri untuk ikhlas pun, tak capai lagi ikhlas yang utk taqarrub ilallah. Ikhlas yang merepek meraban je tau. Now, people around been asking me to consider all over again. Dah consider 100 kali pun disuruh consider lagi, entah pape je lah kan. hahaha. Nanti bila dah buat keputusan nak balik, ada pula suara yang bertanya "tak sayang ke". Lama-lama boleh gila bukan sebab keadaan syria, gila sebab confuse sangat haha! Tapi tak boleh disalahkan sebab orang-orang yang bertanya tu pun tengah confuse. So welcome to the club of confusions. Haha. (Why things are making me laugh hardly?haha!)
I don't know should i laugh because i am that stubborn or should i proud that i'm just being myself. Pergi tidur sudah, lagi senang haha.
'Ala kulli hal, jangan jadikan 'susah' sebagai alasan, kena didik diri supaya ikhlas dalam semua urusan. Meski rapuh, harus berdiri kukuh. Pahala ikhlas hanya Allah yang tahu, bahkan malaikat yang mencatit pun tak tahu =) Hebatkan kedudukan ikhlas. Allahu'alam.
Ikhlas, or in English they call sincerity? But ikhlas means much more deeper than sincerity.
Why i am so holding on to my decision of staying here. The truth is because my studies will finish in less than 4 months. And insyallah i left with few more juz to khatam. But, the question here is, atas dasar apa aku betah disini, ikhlas sebagai tholibul 'ilm or just for the sake of certification. Kalau balik sekarang, memang there is no hope to get the certificate, but.. you'll bring back the knowledge and 'ilm that you gained since the beginning of the course. Ah nampak sangat kan belajar sebab certificate, sebab tu takut kalau kene balik sekarang.
Jujur, nak capai marhalah ikhlas.. tak mudah.. Kadang dah paksa diri untuk ikhlas pun, tak capai lagi ikhlas yang utk taqarrub ilallah. Ikhlas yang merepek meraban je tau. Now, people around been asking me to consider all over again. Dah consider 100 kali pun disuruh consider lagi, entah pape je lah kan. hahaha. Nanti bila dah buat keputusan nak balik, ada pula suara yang bertanya "tak sayang ke". Lama-lama boleh gila bukan sebab keadaan syria, gila sebab confuse sangat haha! Tapi tak boleh disalahkan sebab orang-orang yang bertanya tu pun tengah confuse. So welcome to the club of confusions. Haha. (Why things are making me laugh hardly?haha!)
I don't know should i laugh because i am that stubborn or should i proud that i'm just being myself. Pergi tidur sudah, lagi senang haha.
'Ala kulli hal, jangan jadikan 'susah' sebagai alasan, kena didik diri supaya ikhlas dalam semua urusan. Meski rapuh, harus berdiri kukuh. Pahala ikhlas hanya Allah yang tahu, bahkan malaikat yang mencatit pun tak tahu =) Hebatkan kedudukan ikhlas. Allahu'alam.
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